Na-miss Ko Pala Ang Eng'g

I wasn't really feeling OK pa but then I had to go to Eng'g for Memcom Deliberations. Well, after five days of just lying in bed, I badly needed to go out and make langhap fresh air.

Nasa stairs palang ako, malapit sa IEC tambayan, the first thing I heard was Lou's voice. Sabi niya "Yacel! Ang payat mo!" Oh well, I sure was glad to have heard his voice again, but then I wasn't sure enough I liked what he said. Syempre, naiirita ako minsan kasi lagi nalang akong pinagtitripan na mataba, and being told na pumayat ako would be something I'd have to rejoice for! But I was just reminded of how sick I've been the past few days, and how much I've missed (I mean my final exams!!!)

Tapos nakita ko pa mga batchmates ko - Jaime, Martin, and Pol... I was supposed to be happy kasi sobrang miss ko na ang tambayan at ang mga KEMers, but seeing these people just brought me one more thing to worry about. Naisip ko na namang made-delay ako. Di ako makakasabay sa kanila next sem sa ChE 131 at 132. I was just halfway papuntang tambayan when my tears fell involuntarily. I was supposed to back off, yet it was too late. Nahiya ako sa scene na ginawa ko, Jaime just hugged me. I felt relieved, at least. I was unusually silent the whole time, and Jaime kept telling me to cheer up. I said the only way to make that happen was to make me take my majors next sem. Natahimik siya, that was impossible.

Hay, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang gagawin ko. I guess to accept it would not be a choice to make - because that's the only option I have. Poor me!

*P.S. At least may ikinatuwa rin naman ako sa mga pangyayari. Overwhelming pala ang feeling pag may nakakaramdam ng pagkawala mo, at pag may nakaka-miss sayo... hehehe... (,"(",)

So Unworthy!!!

I was crying a while ago.

I just called my mom and I told her I can't take my Math Finals because I haven't prepared for it since I was feeling really sick. I was expecting her to get mad. BUT, she didn't!!! I told her I screwed up my other subjects as well, and I might fail... Still, she didn't get angry. I cried and cried and told her how depressed and ashamed I am of myself. Yet, she told me I shouldn't feel bad because she's there to support me all the way, failing grades and all. She repeatedly told me how much she loves me.

Now, I'm thinking if I really am worthy of all the love and luxury she's giving me. And the answer? I don't feel I'm even half as deserving of all these! I must have been so good in my past life for God to bless me with such a wonderful mom. I just wish in this life I am good as that so as to repay her with everything she's doing to my life.

Sigh, I wonder if she'd still be as kind if she finds out I broke the month-old lap top she gave me...

Hello Again, Math Building

Im sad - and SICK!

I'm stuck at the dorm since I'm burning with fever... And guess what??? HINDI AKO NAKAPAG-FINALS SA MATH!!! Darn! Just when I thought I'd finally get rid of my least favorite building in the whole wide world, I'd be back there next sem!!! Pero wala ako magagawa, I just wasn't capable of taking the exam... Di ko naman ginusto magkasakit!

Sad! :'(

Nalulungkot ako... :'(

Kasi I hate seeing the people that I care so much about being hurt by others... Nasasaktan din ako pag nasasaktan sila... And I found it really hard to see a dear friend a while ago feeling so depressed because he just had his heart broken... At mahirap din kasi the one who broke his heart is also somehow special to me... Of course, I'm out of the issue... And there's no one left to blame... But, as a friend, I want them out of the anguish they're in right now. I just pray their pains would immediately subside... I really have no idea how it's gonna happen, I just wish it would - ASAP!!!

Happy!

Masaya ako, kasi pasado na ako sa ChE32! =)
Bait ni Sir Aids! =)

SicK akow... ='(

Kailangan bang ngayong Finals Week pa ako magkasakit?

• My back hurts! Bakit? Kasi nag-slide ako sa banyo... Landed flat on my butt! Sabi ng doctor, muscle strain lang naman... But if the pain doesn't disappear in a week, I'd have to go back to the hospital for x-ray...
• My nose is running, and I can't catch it!!! Wahahah, corny bah? Bwiset kasing sipon to eh...
• I have a cough too...
• And as if these misfortunes aren't enough yet, may mas malala pa sa mga yan... My asthma's back!!! It's been almost a year since my last asthma attack, and I thought it has permanently left me. But i was proven wrong, kasi may asthma ako ngayon. I could hardly breathe... =(

Pinaparusuhan kaya ako ng langit? Mabuti naman akong tao ah... Mamamatay na ba ako? Sana hindi pa! I still have soooo much to accomplish... Mag-e-Eng'g Week pa ako! Saka I still have to let all the people I care about know how much i love them...

Oist, ikaw!!! Yes, you! I Love You! =)

Of Eyebags and Zits...

Haven't had decent sleep for over a week now. In times like these, I realize the mirror ain't my best friend after all... I avoid looking at my reflection because all I see is the ultimate truth --- HAGGARD AKO!!! These nasty eyebags and zits have emerged from their burrows. I've got these dark rings encircling my what used to be "tantalizing" eyes (syempre, joke lang yung tantalizing part!) These zits, just a few however, have adorned my face, although I would appreciate it more if they just disappeared...
BUT... No matter how I torment myself, depriving it of sleep and recreation, the results still show no difference as if I haven't studied at all... Hay naku, kung sana itinulog ko nalang... Kung sana nanood nalang ako ng movies... Hindi pa sana ako papanget ng ganito... But, on second thought, at least masasabi ko sa sarili ko na may ginawa ako, di man maging super taas yung exams ko, at least alam kong I've yielded effort... kaya, KEBS nalang sa mga eyebags at tagyawat na to!

Yey, May Blog Na Ko!

Hmmm... I should be reviewing for my ChE32 finals for tomorrow (bakeeet? apparently hindi ako excempted!)... But as usual, I couldn't get myself into studying again... I didn't leave the dorm the whole day coz I have allotted this day entirely for review, but then I just spent it procrastinating... as I expertly do.

Although wala akong nagawang matino today, I have made my own blog account naman, heheheh.... As if I still needed one more distraction to keep my mind off my studies... Hay, ganun talaga eh...